Mattox, my dear son. One day I hope you will understand my reasons for everything that I have done for us. You are my world. You complete me. Son, I will do anything to protect you in any possible way from all the harm in the world. I NEVER want you to EVER have to go through what I have gone through. Those are things NO child should ever have to go through. One day, one day you will understand it all. I PROMISE you. Whenever you are old enough to understand what I am talking about you and I will sit down and talk about EVERYTHING that has gone on since you were born. I promise.